Life is meant to have color, variety, goodness and adventure. And no Kansas is not really in black and white, or sepia-tone, which is what was actually used in the movie. This is pretty much life seen through my eyes and my Judeo-Christian worldview.
Saturday, November 14, 2015
Celebrations and Service
While they are on their honeymoon, I'm filling in for administrative things at The Fellowship at Scofield Farms, including our collection and packing party for Operation Christmas Child, as well as decorating the church for Christmas. I admit the last one is more enjoyable for me because I love decorating for Christmas.
I know that the administrative things will require some rearranging of my schedule. I'm just praying that it doesn't drive me too crazy. We'll see. However, even if it does drive me crazy, I know that it's service to the church and God will take is as an offering since He knows my heart.
So congratulations to Mr & Mrs Daniel! And bring on the holidays!
Saturday, October 10, 2015
Multi-tasking & justification
Psalm 46:10 say "Be still and know that I am God." To me this mean there is a time an place where we should be focused on God alone. I tend to relate Biblical truths to songs, as it helps me remember them. For this particular verse there is a song by Kim Hill, that says it in a perfect way that has always spoken to me, "Be Still & Know" from her first self titled album.
In life's busy-ness, we tend to justify multi-tasking a lot of things, including spending time with God. We think this makes us be more effective in our spiritual life, but in fact it's the opposite. God is jealous and there are times when He wants our undivided attention.
I admit I've done a lot of multi-tasking over the last few months... more than usual. I've gotten rather good at it. Sometimes it was good and necessary. Sometimes it was a Hail Mary move as a result of procrastinating - which I'm also really good at. I've also multi-tasked things I shouldn't have, including spending time with God - and I've justified it by saying thins like it was perfectly fine to pray while doing other things as prayer is a conversation with God that can happen any time and anywhere. Not to say this isn't true, but there are also times when I need to be alone with God, giving Him my undivided attention... time to "be still and know that He is God".
I'm grateful that Pastor Russell, at The Fellowship at Scofield Farms, has started a practice at the end of First Monday Prayer where the last 5 minutes is spent being still before God. It's a good reminder. Hopefully I'll get better at remembering more often on my own. Better yet, I'm praying that God will help me remember to give Him my undivided attention. That's really the only way it will happen.
I know this isn't like my usual posts, but I believe it's what I'm supposed to write this evening.
OK, the K-State/TCU game is getting interesting. While I'll still multi-task, I'm going to pay more attention to the game for a bit.
Friday, August 07, 2015
“D” Week
Saturday, July 18, 2015
Being Unseen
She made a statement that stuck with me. She said that we "must be willing to be unseen." I admit that sometimes I like the appearance of being unseen, while craving selfish acknowledgements of the things I do. I know my spiritual gifts include ones that have me working behind the scenes (see my last blog entry and/or Romans 12 for more on spiritual gifts); but I still struggle with wanting to be appreciated. It's a fine line to walk, that I don't always manage to walk.
I still have more to process from today, but this was this point that struck me, and convicted me the most
Saturday, June 13, 2015
29 with 20 yrs of Experience
My actual 29th birthday, when I had no experience at being 29, was the last birthday I spent in Kansas. I had just come back from Colombia, where I has spent the school year teaching at El Camino Academy. The school has gone through at lot of changes since I was a teacher there. And to the Class of 1995... It's been fun seeing how you have grown over the years.
The 20 yrs of experience... well that's too long of a story for one blog entry. However, there are some changes that bear mentioning... and I'm not just talking about hair color... although that's changed several times.
In preparation for the new sermon series on Spiritual Gifts at church, I took a new spiritual gifts analysis. I have to admit the results were somewhat surprising to me. I think this is the first time that "Administration" was not one of my highest gifts. (So there Chad McMillan and Darren Williams, the 2 who tagged me with the gift of Administration all those years ago. And aren't you jealous Jennie Loftis) My top 3 from today's analysis, in order, are Pastor/Shepherd (I'm not going to seminary, so don't go there), Showing Mercy, & Teaching. The second one kinda put a kink in one of the examples in Pastor Russell's sermon for tomorrow, which I admit made me laugh as I called to tell him. I'm sure he'll adjust just fine.
It seems that what were once my secondary gifts have become my primary gifts; and what used to be my primary gifts of Serving (helps), Administration & Exhortation (encouragement) are now my secondary gifts. I'm sure that this is in no small part to leading the Women's Ministry and Small Group Bible Study at The Fellowship at Scofield Farms. One thing I've learned in my years of experience (even those before age 29) is that spiritual gifts can strengthen and weaken due to use or non-use. But that doesn't mean I don't use my secondary gifts, or even the ones that are my weakest (Evangelism, Prophesy, & Giving). I'm still so thankful to Tom Westbrook for the extremely intense retreat on Spiritual Gifts, Spiritual Armor, & Fruit of the Spirit in Spring 1992 which has given me a broader view of spiritual gifts and how to use them. It has stayed with me all these years, and contributed greatly to the "20 yrs of experience".
If you're in Austin and want to learn more about Spiritual Gifts, join us at The Fellowship at Scofield Farms at 10:00 am on Sundays for the next few weeks.
It will be interested in seeing what the next 20 yrs of experience will bring.
Friday, May 22, 2015
Normal Level of Crazy
Given the ultra-crazy season I've just gone thru, returning to a normal level of crazy is a somewhat a relief. However, I have friends who are going thru seasons of "above normal" crazy. This includes surgery and other health issues; problems with children and their health; interpersonal and family relationship issues; financial issues; spiritual and emotional crises; and many more.
The encouraging thing about seasons of above normal levels of crazy, is when it leads us to the feet of Jesus, just like Martha's sister Mary. I'm thinking that having at least some level of crazy in my life can keep me from becoming complacent, and still bring me to God. So while it may not be Biblical to have a "normal level of crazy"; it can still be used by God to bring us the feet of Jesus and encourage us to stay there more than we would otherwise. My hope and prayer is that even during the seasons when I am at the "normal level of crazy", I still remember to sit at Jesus feet.
Sunday, April 19, 2015
Obedience and Annoyance
And now I have Keith Green's song "To Obey is Better Than Sacrifice" going thru my head. That isn't a bad thing. It's never a bad thing to have a Keith Green song in my head. [yes, I realize that was random, but those who have known me for a while will get it]
So this post is coming from ministry frustrations. It's not the first time it's happened, but it's the first time it's happened at my current church, The Fellowship at Scofield Farms. We had an outreach event on Friday. Because the pastor had another event, I agree'd to unlock the church for set up, and help with the set up. As it turned out, I was the only one there setting up. I know things happened, but that didn't stop me from feeling hurt and taken advantage of, and therefore upset. Also, the reaction to me being upset, or more importantly the lack of a satisfactory reaction; i.e., one that included an apology and acknowledged that I was upset; left me more upset and angry at the pastor.
I should interject that the event was pretty successful and we had over 100 people attend.
Anyway, I was upset enough that I spent Saturday still angry and childishly coming up with excuses for missing church today, but kept hearing the word "obedience" in my head. As a result, when this morning came, I decided to be obedient and go to church, even though I really, really did not want to. The sermon topic was 'Trusting Jesus During the Storms of Life'. At one point, he was talking about trusting Jesus instead of letting your emotions run away with you; and one of the examples he used was going to church even when you don't want to. Needless to say, I was more than mildly annoyed. But this was the type of annoyance that comes from realizing I needed to hear this.
Long story short, by the end of the sermon I was in tears, but in a good way; have asked for forgiveness for my anger. It was gracefully given. Many thanks to Aimee and Sofia for the prayers and talk after church.
This isn't to say that I won't still have frustrations, or that I won't let my emotions take over, because I am an emotional person by nature; but the important thing is that I know I can still be obedient even when I don't feel like it and it's annoying.
Saturday, April 04, 2015
The Bitter Sweetness of Easter Weekend
Let's start with the sweetness of the weekend, which the joy and hope found in Christ's sacrifice and resurrection. I'm sure the disciples didn't see that on Friday or Saturday though. How could they? Jesus had bee crucified and buried. It was not until Easter Sunday that they saw the joy and started to understand what had been done for us. So this weekend had to have been bitter sweet for them as well. It's really the only way to truly describe great sorrow followed by great joy.
For me personally, yes the sweetness comes in celebrating the joy and hope in the weekend because I know that I will get to spend eternity with God. The sorrow comes in being separated from loved ones. Easter day in 2002 was the last time I talked to my mom. She passed away a few days later on April 4, 2002; 13 years ago today.
Also my brother Danny passed away on Easter in 2007, April 7th, which will be 8 years ago this coming Tuesday. Danny's passing was not totally unexpected as he was suffering from complications of Multiple Sclerosis and a brain tumor. Mom's passing however, was a total shock. She was not only my mom, but one of my best friends. I still miss both of them; but I also know I will see them again in heaven. This is more joy and hope that follows sorrow.
I know there are others who understand the bitter sweetness of the weekend. My friends from High School, Patty and Mike buried their younger brother Les on Good Friday. Patty and I talk about it every so often as we both understand what the other is feeling. Only those who have experienced something similar can understand.
Because of this, I think I can understand some of what the disciples and followers of Jesus felt on that weekend. However, I have an advantage on this Saturday before Easter because I know how it ends. The Saturday before Easter Sunday, they didn't. I am thankful the hope I have.
Saturday, March 28, 2015
Endings... or maybe not
I'm also sitting here watching the end of the Kentucky-Notre Dame game in the College Basketball Tournament. Quite honestly, all of my teams are out, and my brackets are totally busted, so I'm done cheering for specific teams. Although I will be interested to see what happens tomorrow when Duke and Gonzaga play.
Since we're talking endings... Kentucky ended that game in a really fun way. It was a nail-biter, and an exciting ending! I'd rather have endings like that than a blowout - unless of course it's a K-State blowout win. And that will never end.
Time to shift topics within the bigger topic. This coming Tuesday is also the last session for our Women's Bible Study in Beth Moore's study of Revelation. I must say it's been a wild ride, and I'm kind of sad we're coming to the end of it. But I'm looking forward to seeing what God will do next with the Women's Bible Study at The Fellowship at Scofield Farms.
And while we're talking about church, and faith, tomorrow is Palm Sunday, and we celebrate the beginning of the last week of Christ's life here on earth - also known as Holy Week. It is reassuring to me to know that Christ's life is not over, that He defeated death, and still lives.
Palm Sunday last year was the first time I attended church at The Fellowship. It's been an interesting and sometimes challenging year. I am thankful God lead me to this church; and don't really see an ending here any time soon.
The last ending, is ending this post. Tune in for the next post...
Sunday, March 15, 2015
Temporary Insanity & Brackets
I was posting comments with my friend Rick during the Selection Show talking about how interesting it's could be if KU plays Wichita State. I don't know who I'd cheer for in that case; because even though I may get flogged and/or disowned for saying this, I actually like Jayhawk Basketball - and I'll probably never hear the end of it from my KU friends (yes that means you Rob Hett). However, as I've already mentioned, I also like the Shockers.
For now I'll just leave it at "Let the Madness Begin!"
Thursday, March 05, 2015
Biting my tongue and speaking my mind.
I've long had the great ability of sticking my foot in my mouth... speaking my mind (and often being sarcastic) when I should be biting my tongue and keeping silent. I'm still trying to learn when I should speak my mind instead of holding my tongue - moreso when talking to those I don't necessarily know. I'm OK with people I know and trust, so most people don't realize that I'm an introvert who overcompensates. I can also speak up when needed for work, because my job includes giving presentations to different groups and providing information at exhibit tables during different events.
When it comes down to it, I get the most timid when it comes to verbally sharing my faith with strangers. Being a geek-nerd-white trash growing up, I found it safer and less painful to shut up and try to blend into the woodwork. It's not that I don't know how to share my faith; but I tend to mess up when speaking about it. I tend to communicate much better in writing... thus this blog.
I was thankful for this week's sermon at church. Our guest speaker gave a sermon on How to Share the Gospel (you can watch it on You Tube), and then talked more about practical methods during lunch. It really wasn't anything new for me; so the issue is not knowledge and ability, but boldness and obedience.
Enter yesterday's post by Margaret Feinberg on disobedience... It's good, and you should read it. I found it fairly convicting. My prayer now is that my boldness in writing about faith in Christ will help me develop boldness in speaking about faith in Christ to those who need to hear it whether I know them or not. If you are reading this and have questions about faith in Christ, feel free to ask. Maybe we can talk about it.
Sunday, February 22, 2015
There is a Season
After getting home yesterday afternoon, I was home log enough to sleep in my bed for a night, catch up on missed episodes of NCIS, go to church, change out suitcases, then hit the road again. I was asked how I was this morning, and my response was "The normal level of crazy". Some days are more crazy than others. I was thankful for this morning where I could slow down for an hour or so at church.
This coming week is known as "Swing Week" for 5 undergraduate universities to have their health professions fairs. This is something I do every year, and have done it often enough that I see the same people, and continue to build professional relationships. We start with the University of Houston, then Texas A & M University, The University of Texas at Austin, The University of Texas San Antonio, and finish with Texas State University.
In the midst of this, I'm also trying to plan events for the Women's Ministry at The Fellowship at Scofield Farms, including a fall retreat where my friend Lora Jones, will be the speaker.
As I read what I've written, I'm starting to think that during this period my life isn't in songs as much as it is in links. Mainly because I'm looking at how many links are in this post and the professional links I'm building and renewing. Thankfully this season is a short one (like winter in TX) because it's quite tiring.
Sunday, February 08, 2015
To Everything...
Saturday, January 31, 2015
Becoming Un-entangled. Thank you Beth Moore!
I was also lucky to run into several friends from other churches: Amy, Leece, Lisa, Sheila, it was good to see you there. I know there were other friends there that I didn't actually get to see, but considering there were approximately 5,000 in attendance, there was no way to see everyone I knew. (Sorry Tisha). Also my new friend Mary Anne Kent from Northwest Fellowship was one of the ladies offering an opening prayer.
Admittedly I was still kinda frazzled from coordinating logistics for the evening for the ladies at church for most of the week. Yes there were lessons learned from that process. Friends had told me during the week to relax. I jokingly told them (to relieve stress) that I'd relax when the program started. As it turned out, that's exactly what happened.
Even though I forgot to take a notebook, there were several take away's that I will remember... partially because I put some of them in the comments after I checked in on my Facebook page:
"I love the Lord because..." [fill in the blank and make sure you tell others so they can know Him too]
"It ain't gonna kill you."
"He never 'entangles' us" to which my friend Katy replied: "No. He doesn't. He ENJOYS us!"
I also amused (and semi-impressed) myself when Beth referred to Daniel 5. Because we completed Beth's study on the Book of Daniel last fall, I knew exactly where she was going with it. I also knew where she was going with the reference to Hebrews 12:1.
The major take away from the evening was a realization that there are some things I've been holding on to that entangles me from time to time, and I needed to, in the words of the over-played and cheesy song from Frozen, "Let It Go". I think there is a part of me that kind of realized this, but since no one had actually said anything about being "entangled", it was easy to push it aside and ignore it, especially since some of it deals with family history.
I know there are some things I still need to work on; and that will be the case until I go home to heaven; but last night brought progress and growth.
Thank you Beth for allowing God to work thru you!
Thursday, January 15, 2015
Karma, Predestination, & Revelation
The other revelation in my week was beginning Beth Moore's study of the book of Revelation with the Women's Bible Study I lead at The Fellowship at Scofield Farms. While I had expected to learn from this study, I was still surprised at... well, basically how much I didn't know or understand. I am so thankful that Beth Moore has done a lot of the hard work for this study. I'm going to have to work hard enough to keep up and continue to learn from this study. I'm really looking forward to learning more and exploring what it means to me. Thanks be to God, and Thank You Beth Moore!
Saturday, January 10, 2015
New Year, New Blog
Tuesday, April 14, 2009
A Long Absence & About Dreams
I've found a new fascination - an actor/singer who played Joseph in "Joseph and the Amazing Technicolor Coat" in London at the West End (London's equivalent of Broadway) after winning a nationwide competition in Britian (which is currently airing on BBC America). His name is Lee Mead, and he's got a fabulous voice. I also recently found an online video of him singing "Any Dream Will Do" with 2 former Joseph's, Jason Donovan, and one of my personal favorites, Donny Osmond. I absolutely love it!
My next dream will come in September. I get to go to another place I've always wanted to see. This one is #3 on my list of "if you could go anywhere"... First was Israel, which I got to see in 2005. Second is Machu Picchu - haven't been there yet. Third on the list, and this year's destination is Rome! Yep, I'm going to Rome at the end of September. I'm meeting my friend Rendi there. I had to laugh because my friend Tommy is happy for me, but at the same time bummed that I get to see The Vatican before him. That's OK, I know I can make it better by bringing him a mug. :-)
It started off as kinda joking, but then turned into a serious conversation, and now looking at flights from Austin to Rome at the end of September. This does mean that I'll miss my high school reunion, but this is once in a lifetime. And it's not like I've made any of the others. There will be other reunions. And for the Marion High class of ??, don't feel bad, I'm also missing a family reunion that same weekend. Someone please take pictures for me.
Anyway, once again, I got a fun reminder to not give up on dreams because they can come true when you least expect it.
Saturday, August 16, 2008
Silver Linings
There really is only so many things you can eat without making your mouth even more sore: pudding, jello, mashed potatoes, tomato soup & yogurt are the first things people think of. I'd like to add Malt-o-Meal, refried beans and guacamole to that list. I'm up to things that have some substance but don't require chewing such at chili, mini ravioli, scrambled eggs, salsa, and oatmeal.
There is still pain that comes and goes, but that's to be expected. Apparently this is one of those things that are worse when you're older, but at least it's taken care of now. And thanks to my friend Tammye who took me to my appointment then home afterwards since I made them put me out to do the surgery. Friends like that are the silver lining in things like this.
Other things have made me smile lately. My sister and brother-in-law came for a visit a few weeks ago. We had fun running around the Hill Country and going to Sea World in San Antonio.
Last weekend I got to see my friend MaryAnn and spend some time with her and some other old friends I haven't seen in a while. I also got to hear MaryAnn sing again which I totally enjoyed.
My friend Jen told me that her daughter Maddie finally took her first steps and her son Jack is now crawling. YEAH!!!
Next weekend is going to be packed but it includes seeing other old friends while I'm in Dallas for work. One of the good things about my job is that from time to time I get to visit friends while traveling to other cities for health professions fairs.
When my mouth is sore and my jaw is throbbing, it helps to remember the silver linings. The prescription pain killers help too. [insert big smile].
Friday, June 20, 2008
Extended Silence
People in the left lane going 5 miles below the speed limit. I want a sign that says "If I passed you in the right-hand lane, you're in the wrong lane" Or better yet that on a big billboard on North Lamar! :-)
The same 866 telephone number appearing on my caller ID at least once a day. Get a clue! I don't want Dish Network.
Coffee with Tom Westbrook.
A birthday party with Joley; and by extension, playing "Don't be a Dork". Yes, I know it's too late for some of us.
Broken appliances: the clothes washer and A/C (at least the washer was till under warranty).
Now my introverted self can go back to being silent for a little bit.
Thursday, March 13, 2008
Primary Fairness
Wednesday, February 06, 2008
New BLog
Wednesday, December 19, 2007
On my political soapbox
Tuesday, November 13, 2007
The Next Step...
Well as of today I get to add a new topic... Home Ownership. Yep, by the end of the day I should be the proud owner of a 1/1 condo in North Austin. My sister says it's about time. My dad doesn't want me going into that much debt (too late for that one!)
Now comes the crazy part - MOVING! I'm a pack rat. I admit it. I come by it honestly from both parents - not to mention grandparents who didn't want to get rid of anything - because of course as soon as you get rid of it, you'll need it.
Anyway, I just wanted to share my next step in the scary realm of adulthood.
Thursday, October 11, 2007
Things that make you go "AAAHHHH!"
Then there is Israel's Prime Minister Olmert calling for a divided Jerusalem. Thankfully Benjamin Netanyahu, Israel's former Prime Minister, took to the floor of Israel's Parliament and totally layes into Olmert and his government. You can read more about it from Natan Sharansky's One Jerusalem blog and in the Jerusalem Post.
Sometimes I get sick of the political posturing that is happening around the world. The US can't think it has cornered the market on that. When I get to that point and consider going back to my political apathy of the early 90's, I remember that all it takes for evil to prevail is for good men (and women) to do nothing.
So when you have no other option except to scream "AAAHHHH!" just make sure you're heard.
Tuesday, September 18, 2007
Postcards & Prayers for Bella
Wednesday, August 15, 2007
Things that squeak and make other noises
Now the fun stuff - other noises. Babies, babies and more babies:
Mike and Jodi welcomed Abram Michael into the world - and from what they can tell he looks like his daddy. You can see pics of him at http://www.ohmyhead.com/archive/abram/
John and Jennie's first is John Landrum Loftis V - how's that for a name. His Uncle Darron said he's going to call him "Cinco". I approve. Don't have a site for pics, but have seen several, and he's way majorly cute.
Others on the way... Dan & Lisa are expecting a girl in early November; Eric and Jen are expecting a boy (Given name is John Wayne and is called Jack) right before Thanksgiving; Bobby & Ruth recently found out they are expecting (she's 8 weeks)
I'm sure I'm forgetting something, but I can't remember...
Friday, July 20, 2007
Exploitation of fallen soldiers is an outrage
Friday, July 06, 2007
New Blog to check out
Saturday, June 02, 2007
Let the Punishment Fit the Crime - NOT!
Oh come on! Give me a break! If anyone should do the public service it should be those who were cheering, not the students. They had no control over the actions of others while they were walking across the stage. The Galesburg school district has gone overboard with their ridiculous and unreasonable punishment for students who did absolutely nothing wrong.
Wednesday, March 07, 2007
Fun(d) Raising
So if you find yourself "flocked", don't jump to conclusions, and consider helping out by contributing to the fun(d).
Tuesday, March 06, 2007
Congo Line
Dear Family and Friends,
Thank you for letting me continue to share with you what God has been doing in my life; and for supporting me both financially, and prayerfully as I went to the Ubangi region of the

The Tandala hospital serves the population base of approximately 200,000 in the region. It has its own nursing school with an emphasis on public health, and caring for the needs of the people in that region. There are 3 full time Congolese physicians leading the ministry of the hospital.
If I had to use one word for this trip, it would be “flexibility”. Plans for this trip changed for me from day one. My first flight out of Austin was cancelled five minutes before it was supposed to take off. After 45 minutes my flight was rescheduled and I had about 10 minutes to get thru security and to my gate. Little did I know at the time that this would set the tone for the rest of the trip – especially the travel logistics.
Once we got to the DRC, with our all of our luggage (Praise God), our team was divided between those who were there to teach at the Bible Institutes in Bau and Tandala; and those working at the Hospital and Nursing School in Tandala, which is the team I was on. While I didn’t totally understand the language and therefore how I was introduced, I did manage to pick up that the Congolese were told I work with White Cross sending supplies, and that I was there to see what was going on at the hospital. This resulted in people not quite knowing what to do with me at first. They wanted to show me everything and explain a lot of things, but I got the impression that they didn’t necessarily want to let me actually do anything, which was frustrating for me. After a day or so, Thelma, had me sorting and inventorying medical supplies in the hospital depot. This was in addition to inventorying supplies at the mission house, along with preparing breakfast and dinner for the team in Tandala. I did more counting and sorting than I care to admit … and I now know a lot more about surgical sutures and clamps than I ever wanted to know.
While it seemed like all I did at first was sorting, counting, and cooking, I was able to help in other ways, and learn more about the Congolese people. The creativity of the Congolese people amazed me at times in the ways they made due with what they had. For example, the hospital had received a shipment of paper gowns, but couldn’t use them. So I ended up helping Alfonsine, one of the ladies at the depot cut them into rectangles and strips. She then sewed them into surgical masks. This not only made use of the gowns, but also supplied the hospital with more surgical masks while they waited for the next container shipment to arrive.
The Congolese people are very welcoming, and very giving. I think I shook more hands on this trip than I’ve ever shaken in my life. And while they don’t have much, they give what they have with a great amount of joy that is encouraging to see. It brought to mind the story of the widow’s mite. Their joy is also very evident in their worship. The services there last as long as both morning services at FEFC together and often include multiple offerings during which everyone files to the front to put their offerings in the baskets.
While in Gemena, we were updated on the ministries of the Community of Evangelical Churches in Ubangi (CECU), the largest Evangelical Free Church in the world after the US. Global Fingerprints, the Aids orphan sponsorship program, is still in the pilot phase, but making progress.
We were also able to see improvements being made at the hospital including a new septic system, which needed upgrading, to go along with the new latrine/shower system being built. The hospital’s administrator, and dentist, used a great amount of creativity in making improvements to the facilities.
I was also able to help by taking pictures at the World Food Program (WFP) clinic for malnourished children. While one of the other team members took the majority of the pics on the trip (thanks Dan), he had other obligations at that time, so I took pictures for the WFP administrator to use in their newsletters and reports.
Toward the end of the trip, I was surprised to find myself ministering more to our team members than to the Congolese people, and it was a major paradigm shift for me. It took me a while to realize that I had gone with a set of expectations very different than what I was experiencing. This caused some major frustrations. I felt like I wasn’t really doing anything of consequence during a fair portion of the trip. Eventually, with the help of Carol and Tom, I finally got it thru my head that ministering to the team members allowed them to do what they needed to do to serve the Congolese people.
Shortly before we left Tandala, one of the doctors at the hospital asked me if I was going to come back. Of course this was after questioning me about still being single and having no children, which I found kind of amusing.
Others here have also asked me about plans to go back. My answer to him, and to them, is the same: “God willing”.
Thank you for allowing me to continue sharing what God has been and is doing both in my life, and in the DRC. Soli Deo Gloria!
Tuesday, January 16, 2007
What's that white stuff on the ground?

I found it funny, so I snapped a shot. Later got shots of my roommate playing in the snow. Yep that's right, we had snow flurries today too - big fluffy ones - and there as even some accumulation.
Every few years or so, we see actual winter weather and everything shuts down. I have no problem staying off the road in winter weather here. Although I grew up driving in it, I don't like being on the road with those who didn't.
Sunday morning I was sitting in church, and during the announcements, they said that the office would be closed and all church events on Monday would be cancelled due to immenent weather. The staff member who was giving the announcements made a comment that he was sure that those of us who grew up in more northern areas were laughing at the Texans - he was right. I was lauging as was my friend Derek who grew up in Michigan.
The only question left is whether or not I'll have to go to work tomorrow.
Friday, December 08, 2006
Military Compassion
Thursday, November 30, 2006
Latest Sports Entertainment
If you want to see what it's all about there are several websites: Full Contact Poker, Full Tilt, Party Poker, World Series of Poker, etc...
I like the strategy of it, that and it's just fun to watch these people try to figure each other out. I've always liked people watching, and this is just a new twist on it.
Monday, November 13, 2006
Exotic travel destinations revisited
If you want more info on the trip, feel free to e-mail me at cjellis66@yahoo.com
Tuesday, September 05, 2006
Holding Pattern over the DRC
Africa is an often unpredictable place. Once again we are seeing this unfold before our eyes. In the past month the Democratic Republic of the Congo (DRC) has seen the first truly democratic elections in 40 years. The current President Joseph Kabila and Vice President Jean-Pierre Bemba will face each other in a run-off election scheduled for October 29.
Unfortunately, since the final vote totals were announced there have been daily gun battles in the capital city of Kinshasa between forces loyal to each of the two candidates. Tensions are rising as the conflicts continue. Given past experience, it is quite likely that Congo will continue to be very unstable in the weeks and months to come. As you can see this is a very serious situation. Please pray for the brothers and sisters in the Congo Free Church, and for all the people of this war torn country during these difficult times.
The Evangelical Free Church of America International Missions (EFCAIM) office has been monitoring the situation closely and has been in contact with the President of the Congo Free Church. A couple weeks ago President Selenga sent an e-mail to the EFCAIM office requesting that we NOT bring a team of Americans to the DRC in late October and early November due to significant security issues. This means the Congo Vision Trip must be postponed until a later time when the security issues have eased and a new government is in place. At this time there are no specific dates in mind as it will be dependent upon the resolution of the current political conflicts. We hope to be able to go some time in early 2007. It is my intention to still be a part of the team when the trip is rescheduled. I’ll let you know when it happens.
Wednesday, August 16, 2006
Exotic Travel Destinations
The continent isn't the only difference in the trip. It's not a vacation, but a missions trip. Part of my time will be spent working at a hospital in Tandala - which is in the Ubangi Province (NW part of the country.) I gotta admit that it's pretty well out of my comfort zone, but that's OK. God is going to a lot of trouble (at least by our standards) to get me on this trip, so who am I to argue.
The Tandala hospital is a 180 bed general hospital. It has its own nursing school with an emphasis on public health, Aids, and caring for the needs of a huge population base. There are two full time Congolese physicians leading the ministry. However, workers are needed in almost every area for short or long periods of time.
The Evangelical Free Church of America International Ministries has organized a Missions Vision Trip to the DRC from October 18th thru November 5th. As part of the team for this trip I will get to visit the Tandala hospital and spend a few days working there. This will help me get a better idea of what their needs are and how we could possibly partner with them in ministry.
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Because this is a missions trip, I'm raising support to cover the costs of the trip, which is about $3,000. This will cover airfare, meals, lodging and other group travel. I will be responsible for my own incidentals and any personal things I may wish to buy. If God leads you to support me financially, your check should be made out to “FEFC”. On the memo line put “Congo Vision Trip-Cindy Ellis”. The donation will be tax deductible. If you want a receipt for tax purposes, please let FEFC office know when you send the check. You can send the check to FEFC at:
FEFC Missions
4220 Monterey Oaks Blvd
Austin, TX 78749
If you want to be on my prayer support team, just e-mail me and I'll add you to my list.
Been getting the first round of immunizations. Not fun either but necessary. I go back in September for round 2. The Austin Diagnotic Clinic's Travel Clinic at the North Austin Medical Center is very good and thorough when it comes to determining what immunizations are needed. Some of them still make me sick, but I think I'm done with those. Don't expect side affects from the ones I still need.
I'll be posting more (and more frequently) about the trip and what I learn.
Sunday, June 11, 2006
Delusional 'preachers'
According to the American Heritage Dictionary, a cult is defined as being:
"A religion or religious sect generally considered to be extremist or false, with its followers often living in an unconventional manner under the guidance of an authoritarian, charismatic leader."
and a ministry is defined as:
"The act of serving"; "The profession, duties, and services of a minister."; and "The Christian clergy."
If you need to read it for yourself, see Dictionary.com.
From what I can tell the only person Fred Phelps is serving is Fred Phelps.
Additionally, what he 'preaches' is not in line with scripture. Hatred of people is not of God. While God hates sin, He does not hate the sinner but desires for the sinner to come to Him in repentance. God desires for all to be saved, however, Phelps holds that only his followers will be saved. Do not get me wrong about the stance that God desires for all to be saved. I am not saying that all will be saved. Scripture tells us some will spend eternity in hell. However, God desires that all be saved, although He gives free will and the decision is ours, thus some will perish. And yes, this means that God even desires for Phelps to be saved.
I'm not going to comment on what I think Phelps salvation status is. That's between him and God. However, I am going to say that I believe those who lead others astray will be held accountable for not only their sins, but for all those they led away from God and His will. Scripture says that "From everyone who has been given much, much will be demanded; and from the one who has been entrusted with much, much more will be asked." Luke 12:48b
Sadly, Phelps is not the only 'delusional preacher' out there. He just happens to be the one who is currently the most vocal. Yes, I've left a church before because what the Senior Pastor was preaching did not line up with scripture. We all have a responsibility to hold our preachers accountable for what they preach, and if what they preach cannot be backed up by scripture, then we should not be giving our support to that particular church.
Friday, March 17, 2006
Multiplying things
The other thing that's multiplying again is internet hoaxes - more specifically, the one about "Touched By An Angel" and Madeline Murray O'Hare. Will this e-mail ever die?!?!? If you get this petition, do not send it on. That's why God created the 'delete' key. It's a hoax and has been going around for years. Unfortunately, it gets sent to those with conservative values who get all riled up and defensive (which I couldn't blame them for if it was true), so they send it out, therefore unknowingly propogating the hoax. Let it die people. Just let it die.
Sunday, February 26, 2006
Prohibition and Persecution
Saturday, January 14, 2006
Wondering about Robertson and the Holy Land
I also wonder whether he apologized because he truly felt remorse, and believed his comment to be wrong; or if it was to restore the good will of Israel so he could go ahead with his proposed theme park near the Sea of Galilee. Either way, it worked. The Jerusalem Post reports that the Israeli Tourism Ministry is reconsidering its decision to cancel its contract with Robertson after he apologized to Sharon’s son.
And while I’m wondering, I wonder what Jesus thinks of Robertson commercializing the Holy Land by building a theme park. I know that tourism is Israel’s biggest industry, and the proposed theme park will bring in a good amount of revenue, but so did the money changers in the temple court.
Having visited Israel a few months ago, I have a problem with there being a theme park in the Galilee region. A church on a holy site is one thing, but a theme park is something else all together. Even so, there were places that we visited that I would have preferred to see without the churches built on them – for example, the Mount of the Beatitudes. While the church is beautiful and has a great view of the Sea of Galilee, I would have liked to see the site as it was when Jesus taught there. I wasn’t the only one in our group who felt this way.
I believe that Robertson’s sees the theme park as being for the benefit of those who would travel to the Holy Land on a pilgrimage, and for the nation of Israel. And I’m sure it will to some degree, and to a large dollar amount. However, I can’t help comparing the proposed theme park with the booths of the moneychangers in the temple courtyard of Jesus’ day.
Finally, I wonder whose idea it was to stop referring to the project as a theme park and start calling it a ‘Christian Heritage Center’. Call it what you will, it’s still commercializing holy sites, and I still have a problem with it.
This brings us back to my original statement. I wonder what Pat Robertson is thinking.
Wednesday, December 28, 2005
Intelligent Design Under Judgement
Monday, December 12, 2005
The Deeper Majic of Narnia
While the larger main themes of betrayal and redemption through the sacrifice of another are still present with the Christological imagery, I think Disney should have stayed closer to the book, and paid more attention to details.
My other disappointment with this movie is that I don't really like how Susan was portrayed. She was shown as being much more overly pessimistic than she is in the book. Travis commented that he thought she was cynical. Yeah, I can go with that. I think Disney went over the top in her unbelief. In the book she is not so much cynical and pessimistic as she is timid, and unsure of things. The movie shows her has being totally without hope to the point of being reckless, not only with her life, but the lives of her siblings. This is all prior to meeting Aslan of course. While it makes the imagery of going from hopelessness to hope through the one who brings salvation much more dramatic and distinct, I don't think is true to Lewis's portrayal of her in his book. As I said before, this is totally a Disney movie.
In spite of my disappointments with the movie, I can see the appeal to the mass market. My hope is that the part of the deeper magic of this version of Narnia is that it will have the same magic found in Harry Potter in that it will encourage both children and adults to read more. I'd love to see school-aged children pick up the entire series to read, and then bring their parents along on the trip as well, or vice-versa. In this age of mass video entertainment, that would truly be magical.
Sunday, December 04, 2005
Vince & the NFL
Hook 'Em Horns!
Saturday, November 26, 2005
That which we may or may not be required to know
One of the main reasons listed for finding the current school financing plan unconstitutional is that the individual school districts have no control of the tax rates. The court holds that the state-designated cap on property taxes which are used for public school financing is in effect a statewide property tax, which is prohibited in the TX Constitution. Maybe the June 1 deadline stated in the decision will light a fire under the Legislature to actually come up with a better plan. I'll let them borrow my lighter if it will help get that fire lit.
The other points of this lawsuit are the adequacy of public school funding and the equity of school funding between districts. The court holds that current school funding is adequate to achieve a 'general diffusion of knowledge.' The problem with this is that the standards used to measure whether to not the schools are achieving this are set way to low. The current requirements for a school to be rated as 'academically acceptable' are focused on reducing the failure rate, not educating the students in a way that will prepare them to function in our society as adults. The court's majority opinion on the school finance decision addresses this, although it's long and may take a little bit to wade through.
Current requirements for a school in Texas to be academically acceptable state that only 25 % of their students have to pass the science portion of the TAKS (Texas Assessment of Knowledge and Skills) test, 35% have to pass the math portion, and 50% have to pass the English, writing and social studies portion. The rates will increase incrementally until 2009 when the rate will have to be 70% passing in all areas, but it doesn't really make sense to start the levels low and incrementally increase them. I've found that when you settle for standards that require lower levels of education that's exactly what you'll get. Allowing students and teachers a lower level of accountability in passing rates on the TAKS now doesn't promote increased learning as there is a lower base to build on which will make it harder to increase the passing rate at later dates. And people wonder why our students aren't better educated.
Because the passing rates are measured by standardized test scores, I feel like I need to comment on the reliability of standardized tests. While I recognize the need for a uniform system of evaluating what students have learned, I am not a big fan of standardized testing. While it may show how much a student knows to a certain degree, I believe that it is more a measure of how well a student tests. Additionally, the TAKS test doesn't cover all of the prescribed curriculum, and therefore isn't necessarily an accurate measure of whether or not a school has provided a 'general diffusion of knowledge.'
Unfortunately, without a better way of evaluating how well our schools are preparing students to function in college and society, we are stuck with standardized tests. I'm sure this issue will be visited again in future posts. Equity in funding between the districts is a different issue for a different time. Not even the high court would touch the Robin Hood law in their latest ruling.
Maybe some day, someone will come up with a better method of evaluating how effective our schools are. And maybe Legislature can fix public school finance.
Hmmm... a girl can dream can't she?
Friday, November 18, 2005
Black & White & Grey all over
1) Close counts only in horse shoes, hand grenades, and Holy sites. Given the multiple turn overs in occupation and control in the region for the last few millenia, it's hard to tell sometimes which is the actual site, and twhich is the 'traditional' site as designated by the Catholic Church. At first this bothered me, but as our tour guide, Doreen, said, it's more about the symbolic importance than about the actual location sometimes. Although I must say those Byzantines sure knew how to do mosaics and stained glass.
2) Nothing in that area is as black and white as we would like to make it. For every person you talk to with one opinion, you will find another with an opposite opinion. I took a side trip to Bethany, which is just outside of Jerusalem, in the Palestinian West Bank. Our guide was a Palestinian Muslim who was very knowledgeable about the Christian sites in Bethany. He took us to the tomb of Lazarus among other sites. He told us that he believes that those in power keep trying to make the issue of control in the region a religious one when it is really about possession of the land and political power. This was totally opposite of an editorial I had recently read stating that those in power keep trying to make it a political issue when it's really a religious issue. I really don't think we can have one without the other. The political issues are religious, and unfortunately the religious issues are political.
3) True peace in Israel isn't possible until Jesus returns. As simplistic as that may sound I believe that there will be temporary periods of relative peace, but no true lasting peace this side of Jesus return. There are too many different groups with history there, and the future for every one of us, whether we want to admit it or not, lies there.
4) I don't know nearly as much about Judaism or Islam as I should. I was amazed that both our Jewish Israeli guide and our Palestinian Muslim guide knew much more about Christianity than I know about either religion.
All in all the trip was absoultely fabulous. I'm still processing the great amount of information that I've been given over the last few weeks, so I'm sure there will be more later on the subject.
Sunday, October 30, 2005
The merry old Land of Oz
I find lately that there are things that happen in life that keep me in awe of what God is doing in and through me, thus the play on words - Awes & Oz.
I was encouraged to do this by my friend Travis who is the Voice in the Wilderness. His blog is at http://austinvitw.blogspot.com/. I encourage you to read it. He covers pretty much everything from politics to religion to the BCS and why it's evil, plus anything else that comes to him.
There will be more to come although it may be sporadic at times. You may also see me contributing to the VITW.
Now I'm off to see the Wizard.